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I don’t think human beings hate labor.
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You always hear people complaining about work.
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I think human beings hate stolen labor.
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I do not think human beings hate labor.
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There is a difference.
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Just stolen labor. What is the difference?
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A beaver builds a dam because instinct tells it to.
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A beaver builds a dam because instinct tells it to.
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It does not sit there imagining a better dam,
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It does not sit there, imagining a better dam, sketching out its ideal version.
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sketching out its ideal version of a dam,
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It does not compare different dam building philosophies,
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comparing different dam building philosophies,
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willing that imagined structure into reality.
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and then willing that imagined structure into reality.
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You know who does? We do.
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Humans do.
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That is one of the strangest and most beautiful things about us.
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That is one of the strangest but yet most beautiful things about us.
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We imagine something that does not exist,
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We can imagine something that does not exist, and then act upon the world,
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and then we act upon the world until it does.
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until it does. A house, a song, a garden, an idea, a relationship, a life.
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A house, a song, a garden, a body, a relationship, a life.
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We are not just creatures who exist in nature.
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We are not just creatures who exist in nature.
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We transform nature.
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We transform nature.
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We metabolize the world through labor and, in doing so, produce ourselves.
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We metabolize the world through labor, and in doing so, produce ourselves.
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This is why I have never fully bought the idea that people are naturally lazy.
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This is why I have never really believed the idea that people are naturally lazy.
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I think people are exhausted, alienated, underpaid, overmanaged, disrespected,
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I think they are exhausted, alienated, underpaid, over-managed, disrespected,
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surveilled, and robbed of meaning.
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surveilled, and robbed of meaning.
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But lazy? I don’t think so.
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But lazy? I do not think so.
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People love doing things.
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People love doing things.
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People love building things, fixing things, organizing things, decorating rooms,
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People love building things, fixing things, organizing things.
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making playlists, cooking meals, tending plants, writing code, raising children,
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We love decorating rooms, making playlists, cooking meals, tending plants,
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running, lifting, learning instruments, making art, making homes.
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writing code, raising children, running, lifting, making art.
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Even when people are “doing nothing,” they are usually still producing something:
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Even when people are “doing nothing,” they are usually still producing something:
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taste, identity, humor, community, fantasy, self-understanding.
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taste, identity, humor, community, fantasy, self understanding
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The problem is not labor.
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(all things being commodified btw.) The problem is not labor.
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The problem is that so much of our labor does not belong to us.
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Too much of our labor does not belong to us.
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At work, you sell your time and energy,
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At work, you sell your time and energy,
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but the value you create does not return to you in full.
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but the value you create does not return to you in full.
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Someone else owns the product.
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Someone else owns the product. Someone else owns the platform.
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Someone else owns the platform.
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Someone else owns the schedule, the metrics, the uniform, the customer experience,
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Someone else owns the schedule, the metrics, the uniform, the customer experience, the profit.
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the profit. You give your body, your attention, your patience, your personality,
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You give your body, your attention, your patience, your personality,
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your fucking all,
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and in return you receive only a fraction of what your labor produces.
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and all you get in return is only a fraction of what your labor produces.
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Everyone is trying to extract something.
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Everyone is trying to extract something. Your boss extracts productivity.
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Your boss extracts productivity.
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Platforms extract attention. Schools extract performance.
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Platforms extract attention.
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Mobile phone applications extract data. Even hobbies get turned into content.
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Landlords extract rent.
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Rest becomes optimization. The self, a brand.
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Schools extract performance.
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This is why weightlifting and bodybuilding feels different to me.
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Apps extract data.
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Not because it is merely or aesthetic, or because I want to look good,
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Even hobbies get metabolized into content.
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(though I do.)
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Even rest becomes optimization.
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But because bodybuilding is one of the few places in my life where my labor
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Even the self becomes a brand.
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still feels like it comes back to me.
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No one can exploit my set and get bigger from me.
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This is why bodybuilding feels different to me.
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No one can take my reps, my soreness, my recover,
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Not because it is merely healthy.
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and deposit the gains into their own body.
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Not because it is merely aesthetic.
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If I put in the work, the adaptation happens in me.
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Not because I want to look good, though I do.
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But because bodybuilding is one of the few places in my life where my labor still feels like it comes back to me.
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No one can exploit my set and get bigger from it.
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No one can take my reps, my soreness, my recovery, my progression,
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and deposit the gains into their own body. If I train, eat, sleep, and repeat,
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the adaptation happens in me.
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The labor becomes flesh.
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The labor becomes flesh.
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The product is not abstracted away from the worker.
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The product is not abstracted away from the worker.
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The worker is the product.
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The worker is the product.
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That is the addictive part.
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That is the addictive part.
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In the gym, cause and effect feel unusually honest.
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In the gym, cause and effect feel unusually honest.
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It is simple, really.
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I apply effort to the world, and the world responds.
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I apply effort to the world, and the world responds.
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I pick up the weight.
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I pick up the weight, and move it through space.
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I move it through space.
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I fail, adjust, return and try again.
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I fail, adjust, return, and try again.
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And over time, something changes.
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Over time, something changes.
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My body becomes the record of work performed.
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My body becomes a record of work performed.
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No more manager or shareholder or institution standing between me and the thing
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There is no manager claiming credit for my shoulders.
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I produced, sucking out all the surplus value from my squat.
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There is no shareholder taking surplus value from my squat.
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The transformation is mine and mine alone.
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There is no institution standing between me and the thing I produced.
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The transformation is mine.
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But this is also where the simple individualist story falls apart,
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I am not painting the gym as some fantasy of total self sufficiency.
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because the gym is not actually some fantasy of total self-sufficiency.
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It is collectivist.
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The gym is collectivist.
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Most of us could never afford to own all the equipment we use.
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Most of us could never afford to own all the equipment we use.
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The squat racks, cable machines, leg presses, benches, dumbbells, plates,
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The equipment, maintenance, down to the space itself.
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mirrors, lights, bathrooms, flooring, maintenance, space itself — all of it would be absurdly inefficient for one person to privately own just to use for a few hours a week.
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All of it would be absurdly inefficient for one person to privately own just to
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So we pool resources.
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use for a few hours a week. So we pool resources.
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Everyone pays a small amount,
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Everyone pays a small amount,
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and suddenly each of us gains access to far more than we could have alone.
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and suddenly each of us gains access to far more than we could have alone.
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The same bench can serve hundreds of people.
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The same bench can serve hundreds of people.
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The same barbell can be used by beginners, powerlifters, bodybuilders,
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The same barbell can be used by anyone:
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older people trying to stay mobile, teenagers discovering themselves,
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older people trying to stay mobile, teenagers discovering themselves,
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exhausted workers trying to feel human again.
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exhausted workers trying to feel human again.
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The gym is shared infrastructure.
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The gym is shared infrastructure.
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And yet the result remains personal.
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And yet the result remains personal.
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That is the beautiful contradiction.
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That is a beautiful contradiction.
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The means are collective. The transformation is individual.
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The means are collective.
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The transformation is individual.
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The equipment belongs, in some sense, to all of us.
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The equipment belongs, in some sense, to all of us.
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But the labor cannot be collectivized in the same way.
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But the labor cannot be collectivized in the same way.
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For an hour or two, I get to labor in a way where the product does not leave me.
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For an hour or two, I get to labor in a way where the product does not leave me.
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I get to consciously transform the world, even if that “world” is my own body.
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I get to consciously transform the world, even if that “world” is my own body.
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I get to imagine a version of myself and then participate in making him real.
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I get to imagine a version of myself and then participate in making him real.
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That does not feel like vanity to me.
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That does not feel like vanity to me.
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It feels like proof that I am alive.
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It feels like proof that I am alive.
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Maybe what we want is not a life without labor.
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Maybe what we want is not a life without labor.
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Maybe that would not satisfy us at all.
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Maybe that would not satisfy us at all.
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Maybe we are not trying to escape work in the deepest sense.
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Maybe we are not trying to escape work in the deepest sense.
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Maybe we are trying to escape alienated work.
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Maybe we are trying to escape alienated work.
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Maybe we want labor that returns to us.
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Maybe we want labor that returns to us.
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Labor where we can recognize ourselves in what we have made.
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Labor where we can recognize ourselves in what we have made,
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something to be proud of in its entirety.
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Labor where the process itself has dignity.
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Labor where the process itself has dignity.
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Labor where the product is not stolen, abstracted, or turned against us.
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Labor where the product is not stolen or turned against us.
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That is what bodybuilding gives me, or at least what it lets me feel.
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The barbell is shared.
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That is what bodybuilding gives me, or at least what it lets me feel.
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The labor is mine.
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The body remembers.
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